Hi everyone who actually reads my stuff here, so two days from now I'm like a "Sophomore" in my secretarial career and I'm not sure if I'm more excited or not, because I don't like to study to be honest and I didn't want to become a Secretary but things happen..
I know going to school will stop me (for a while, at least) to think about depression and my suicidal thoughts.. and yes, I still have them every night. I am aware that getting busy on something is a HUGE help for me, like I said it makes my brain thinking about other things that aren't negative in it's majority :)
I did some things that aren't quite logical.. I guess I went nuts for the holidays!! I have SAD so I get depressed often on Christmas eve or so. I erased my Twitter account, my Facebook ( and opened another one) of course I erased the most friends I had, I rarely talk to someone.. I feel like no one is really there for me and they don't understand.
11:19p.m. My mother started to hit me and yell at me for the most STUPID things ughhh She's been like this since I was little and she would't pay attention to me so I don't really know nor do I care why is that behavior.. I just don't care anymore.
I was eager about going to school when I first started to write this post but now I'm just so angry.. Here comes the tears thanks mother I really appreciate the fact you make me cry with your stupidness >:(
I just noticed my paragraphs are too small, I sorry for my lack of effort writing this I'm really sorry but right now all I want is to write, it kind of helps me.
That's me in the bathroom of a Friday's restaurant, it's really good I went there last week, loved it..
k, bye.
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